(Read while listening to Done It Anyway by Nonpoint)
The year (2012) is ending and people are once again coming up with
resolutions for the New Year. I decided to do things a little different.
Instead of many lists that will never get a second glance, I changed my entire
life. The motivation behind it was threefold; I wanted to rest and recover,
wanted to be near my loved ones and needed to feel like my old self (I have no
idea why).
After a mediocre pro and con list and millions of hours
worth of advice, I quit my two jobs, sold my belongings, broke my lease, said
my farewells to friends and I parted. Destination: Home!
The welcoming was warm, exciting and promising. I felt sure
of my decision. Putting away gloves, coats and getting back on flip-flops came
natural and rewarding. My resting period was well on its way when I felt desperation
to work. Maybe I’m crazy but after a month of basically doing nothing made me
feel useless and unproductive. I missed challenging my mind, meeting people,
solving problems and dressing up for work. I felt less of myself here, suddenly
the realization came clear, I had grown up.
I no longer
wanted to do the things that I found fun or important before I left Puerto Rico,
I had nothing to talk about with people I’d known for years. The need that I
had to come back home felt so minimal compared to my desire to move back.
Fighting my urges and remembering my reasons to move back made me give it a try
and hope for the best!
“The heart has its reasons, which reason knows nothing of.”
– Blaise Pascal
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